Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Only You

Do not cry my sweet,
Wipe the tears from your eyes,
For i am here now with you,
Always to be by your side,
I shall protect you from harm,
With love strong and bold,
Never ceasing, never changing,
Not even as we both grow old,
My word on my honor,
Shall hold great and true,
For as the years pass,
I will see only you,
Your beautiful smile,
Shining bright with the sun,
Your gentle eyes staring,
As if it will never be done,
I can't seem to look away from you,
Perfection to almost chill,
I'll love you till the day i die,
Or maybe longer still.

Friday, July 29, 2005

My One True Love

Can't wait to hold you,
Missin' you so bad,
Can't wait to just be near you,
Have you touch me...
With your finger tips,

Just wanna see you,
Look into your eyes,
Reach out and have you there,
Wanna be aware...
Of your loving stare,

Feelin' so sick,
Sick of missin' you so bad,
Just wanna be with you,
So I could feel glad,

Wish you could be here with me,
Wrapin' your arms around me,
Holdin' me close,
And protecting me from harm,
Wanna look into those eyes of yours,
Get lost in our romance,

Feel your hand touch my cheek,
Listen to you breathe,
Hold your heart close to mine,
And wisper as they beat,
Smell your sweet familar scent,
And see your gentle smile,

I miss you more than i can express,
So now i'll tell you this,
I love you more than anything,
And can't wait until the day,
When once more my eyes can fall upon,
My one true love.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

How does one....

As I sit as stare in the oblivion which was once my heart,
I wonder, will it heal someday?
Can I ever love again, as I once loved you?
Will i ever find someone good enough to call my own?
Or rather will someone ever find me good enough to call me their own?
How will I know?
Will they tell me?

How does one count the peltals of a wilting rose?

Life fades before me as if unreal,
As if I cannot live without love,
And without you there is no love,
Am i right? Or am I hanging onto something that was never there?
Something that will never be there,
Hanging on only to have something to hang on to,

How does one see when blinded by shadowed hand?

While standing in the darkness can you see the light?
Or do you only see the darkness that surrounds you?
How do you know light even exists if you can't see it?
If you can't see it how do you know anything exists?
How do you know love even exists?
Could it fade as happiness, anger, and sadness do?

How does one hold water in the palm of an open hand?

"The questions of life cannot be answered by one,
but by many,
seek help from the world and the world will seek help from you,
nothing is impossible if you work together."

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

If Tears Could Make Me Pretty...

If tears could make me pretty,
I'd be the prettiest girl alive,
If broken hearts could bring me friends,
I'd have a millon and one,
If sadness could make my worries disappear,
I'd have not a care in the world,
If loss could make me stonger,
I'd be made of steel,
If betrayal could bring me good fortune,
I'd be the luckiest person around,
If fear could make me caring,
I'd have a heart of gold,
If pain could make me smart,
I'd be a genius,
If loving you could give me eternal life,
I'd live forever.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Farwell And Goodbye

As we walk through these halls one final time,
Passing friends,
And saying our sweet goodbyes,
We've had our time,
We ran our race,
Slipped by those we love,
Only to let them take our place,
We sat on the throne,
And served our time,
Saw those smiling faces,
And drank them up as sweet sorrowful wine,
Now moving on,
As we cry these tears,
Of memories remembered,
Through these long years,
We had our laughs,
We had our cries,
And now it's time for us to say our goodbyes,
We've loved but not lost,
We pass the key,
As we walk through these halls on trembling knees,
Passing our friends,
With tears in our eyes,
For one last time,
Farwell and Goodbye.

It's Almost Funny

It's almost funny you see,
How we rant and we rave,
Premarrital sex,
Drunk driving,
Under age,

So many are hypoctrites,
So many not real,
All fakes and liars,
Can you find out who really feels?

I sit and wonder,
Could this be true,
So many these days,
Whats happened to this youth,

Sex and drugs,
Profanity galore,
Turn left or right,
Who'll be the next to "score",

It's almost funny you see,
How we rant and we rave,
Premarrital sex,
Drunk driving,
Under age,

Some give so many long years,
Of that they could've saved,
For one happy night,
Just to throw it all away,

So it's almost funny you see,
How we rant and we rave,
Premarrital sex,
Drunk driving,
Under age.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Blame

My day was good,
Not sad,
Nor glad,
I got to see an old friend I’d had,

But then you called,
And as you talked,
You blamed me for,
What last night I brought,

It’s all my fault,
It always is,
But then your sorry,
When I start to weep,

I hate these years,
When I can’t help but shed those horrid tears,
I wish for once,
That they could stay inside,

And I walk away with a lil’ pride,
I feel so helpless,
Full of shame,
I guess that’s why I’m so easy to blame.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Forever and Always

Can't breathe,
Your brown eyes looking into mine,
Can't speak,
Your protecting arms around me,

How can i tell you how much you mean to me,
How much i love you,

Words cannot express it,
No one can compare to you,
You are my everything,
Without you i'm nothing,

Without you i'm not whole,
Your different than all the rest,
Your the one,
The one i will love till the day i die,

You can always make me smile,
Always make me laugh,
Always make me happy,

You don't have to try,
Just being you is enough,
I'll love you till the day i die,
Forever and always at last.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Do Not Worry, Do Not Weep

Run, run, as fast as you can,
Can you see me as i disapear from the palm of your hand,
I'm no longer yours to control and keep,
But do not worry, do not weep,
I wish not for your tears,
Too many have been shed through these 2 long years,

You say you love me, but push me away,
When you come crawling back, don't ask me to stay,
Your finished with me, moving on with your life,
Someday you'll find someone willing to deal with you and be your wife,

I'm happy now can't you see,
Yeah these days you wouldn't even recognize me,
Smile as bright as the August sun,
Wasn't ever like that when i was with you hun,

So don't worry, don't weep,
I won't need you as i walk down that isle with trembling feet,
My long white dress, hair all primped and pretty,
You'll then be the one that we all pity.

Monday, February 28, 2005

A Friend Till The End

You've done it now,
You ran the race,
And didn't settle for second place,

The ribbon snapped,
As you ran through,
Who in the world would'a new,

She was your friend,
Always there,
But i guess it took a while to make you stare,

But your happy now,
I can see,
You found your place, and it wasn't with me,

But don't get me wrong,
Don't misunderstand,
I will always be close at hand,

I found my place too, and it wasn't with you,
So don't worry about me,
I still know where you'll always be,

We will always be friends,
Forever until the end,
I will always have a helping hand to lend.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Why Can't You Just Accept Her?

Can't speak,
Can't breathe,
All i can do is watch,
All i can do is listen,
It makes me want to scream out loud,
The abuse, the fighting,
But you don't listen to me,

Why can't you just accept her,

She's not really that different you know,
She's a bitch you say,
Only because you make her i respond,
You don't understand,
You don't listen,
She feels so alone,

Why can't you just accept her,

She wants to be accepted,
Be loved for who she is,
She's not a hypocrite,
Like so many are these days,
She's tired of being lonely,
Why can't you just be kind,
Listen to her mornful plees,

Why can't you just accept her,

She wants to be your friend,
You just don't give her time enough,
You judge her,
Mentally abuse her,
Use her,
She not a fake,
She's for real,
Her thoughts are deeper than death,
I listen and try to fight for her,
But you'll never listen,

Why can't you just accept her,

Do you not hear what i say, what i scream,
She just wants to be accepted,
Wants to be your friend,
Wants to get along with you,

She hates the fighting,
The yelling,
But thinks it better then being alone,

Don't try to change her,

She wants to hate you,
But guess what she can't,
She loves you more than life,

You've brought her to the thought of death,
More than just once or twice,

She wants someone to love her back,
To be her friend through think and thin,
She's tired of being lonely,

Why can't you just accept her.



*dedicated to a friend, you know who you are... i love you forever and always, if you ever need a helping hand, i'll always be there to lend one!"

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Can You See

Can you see as tears stream down her porciline face,
For she pushed so hard but you still won the race,
She tried so hard to make it through,
But she just couldn't take it when put up to you,
She kept up with you until the very end,
When at last she found no more energy to spend,
You didn't look back to see if she was ok,
You probably couldn't care less if she had died that very day,
Of course you'll always make it in whatever you pursue,
Because your in it for no one else except yourself and what you do,

You think you have it good this way,
But you'll see throughout the days,
Your friends will leave you one by one,
Your life will slowly come undone,
Someday you'll want to turn around,
But you won't see her lying on the ground,
For by then she will have passed you by,
Slid right past your unwary eye,
It will be to late to fix the past,
You will then see the real you at last,
What you are and what will have then become,
Will eat at you until you are numb,
She will then shed no more tears,
For she'll have won at last and surpressed her fears.

Bittersweet End

Things do change,
Wounds do mend,
Leaving us at a bittersweet end,

Darkness does fade,
The sun rises once more,
Revealing us standing,
Each at the others door,

Friends to the end,
We worked through the past,
Foraging into the future,
Forever at last,

We shall always stand strong,
Side by side through the days,
You are not my love,
But a dear friend in many ways,

Things do change,
Wounds do mend,
Leaving us at a bittersweet end.

*A tribute to a dear dear friend*

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Every Moment

Every day,
Every hour,
Every minute,
Every second,
Every passing moment i fall more in love with you,

Your are my everything,
My best friend,
The one person i have no secrets with,
My dearest companion,
The one person i can always turn to.
My most loyal associate.
The one person i can trust forever and always.
My sincere familar,
The one person that always makes me smile,
My playful comrade,

Every day,
Every hour,
Every minute,
Every second,
Every passing moment i fall more in love with you.

Why Do You Use Her?

Why do you use her,
Abuse her,
Bruise her,

Stole her innocence,
What little pride remained,
Yet she ignores it,

Why do you use her,
Abuse her,
Bruise her,

She doesn't see,
Turns from the warnings,
One day you'll break her heart,
No turning back,
No hope for tomorrow,

One thing torn from her open arms,
Something that cannot be returned,

At least she will be happy for a time,
Happy in her blissful ignorance,

Why do you use her,
Abuse her,
Bruise her.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Fairytale Love

Kissing under the tunnel slide,
The lil' boy with glasses,

Five years down the road,
They lay beneath the starlit sky,
Their hands entwined together,

Ten more precious years pass by,
Her heart belongs to him,
A single ring on her left hand,
Binds their souls as one,

Twenty loving years fly by,
Bringing two kids, three dogs, and fish,
Laughter had filled their solemn home,
Bringing joys and smiles with,
Their love just grew and grew,

Forty more long years slipped by,
Their picket fence grew dull,
Their solemn halls had long been quiet,
And grandkids came and went,
Eighty-two kind years had passed,
But their fairytale love stayed strong.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

My Inspiration

You are my inspiration,
My inspiration to be me,

I am a writer,
A fighter,
A dreamer,
A daughter,
A singer,
A friend,
A sister,
A lover,

You are my inspirarion,
My inspiration to be me.

*I love you forever and always baby*

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Hope

My persistence is fading,
My hope caught in a slow tumble with torment,

I wish you could fell my pain,
Feel as it burned tattered holes in your heart,
As it does mine,

But then is that not what I see deep in your eyes now,
You twist with the pain you give me,
Dwelling in self-pity for you have hurt me,
The one you “love”,

It seems as if you feed me tortured lies,
But then your word is held in the utmost highest to me,
For that I will not give in to that thought,
That thought that you do not care,
That thought that you no longer love me,

For that moment will be my downfall,
My breaking point,
For then all hope is gone,

One cannot live without hope,
So I cling to it,

Without hope I have nothing,

So although my persistence fades,
My hope caught in a slow tumble with torment,

It lingers,
For I will not let it slip away,
Hope, is all I have left.

Special

Why am I so special,
I cheat, I lie, I lust,
How can you love me,
I left you in the dust,

I never meant hurt you,
But what a bitch I am,
I tore your heart to pieces,
And buried them in the sand,

Why am I so special,
Worthy of your praise,
You treat me like a princess,
Dispite my evil ways,

Be wary of my sinister touch,
I’ll drag you down as well,
Don’t let me get to close to you,
For where I came from is hell.

Mr. Smiley

Keep on smiling Mr. smiley,
When all is lost and gray,
No hope seems to show,
Throughout each night and day,

Keep on smiling Mr. Smiley,
Don’t let it get you down,
The storm may keep on coming,
But if you stop you’ll drown,

Keep on smiling Mr. Smiley,
All eyes are on you,
I’ll wipe away your tears,
To try and help you through,

Keep on smiling Mr. Smiley,
You’re not quite so alone,
Someone’s out there waiting,
To call you their very own.

Carry On

Carry on dancing,
Carry on singing,
Carry on living,
While inside I’m weeping,

I gaze at the world,
They don’t have a clue,
That every time I smile,
I seem to think of you,

But…
Carry on dancing,
Carry on singing,
Carry on living,
While inside I’m weeping,

For no one shall know,
The pain I go through,
Everytime we talk,
And silence consumes you,

Carry on dancing,
Carry on singing,
Carry on living,
While inside I’m weeping,

I smile at the world,
Everything is ok,
I shall still wait,
To die another day

But…
Carry on dancing,
Carry on singing,
Carry on living,
While inside I’m weeping.

Love

Love,
It’s a funny word,
Is it not,

Abundant in good things,
Joy
Happiness,
Laughter,
Smiles,

Although carrying burdens,
Lies,
Tears,
Deceit,
Betrayal,
Loneliness,

But one cannot live without love,
The happy horror of painted lies,
It runs red across the chalkboard of hell,
Branded by the disfigured plague,

Love is a funny word,
Is it not.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Bloodstained Curtains

I sit behind bloodstained curtains,
Trying to hide my fear, my anguish,
My pursistance is fading,
My hope caught in a slow tumble with torment,

I wish you could feel my pain,
Feel as it burns tattered holes in your heart,
As it does mine,

But then is that not what i see deep in your eyes now,
You twist with the pain you give me,
You tell me you love me,
But then what is love if you cannot be with your lover,

It seems as if you feed me tortured lies,
But then your word is held in the highest to me,
I will not give in to that thought,
That thought that you do not care,
That thought that you no longer love me,

For that moment will be my downfall,
My breaking point,
For then all hope is gone,
And one cannot live without hope,

So i cling to it,
That single thought,
That you do love me,
For without that hope i have nothing

Although it fades, my persistance,
Caught in that slow tumble with torment,

I sit behind bloodstained curtains,
Trying to hide my fear, my anguish.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Fear

My foolish mind has to many times ripped my beating heart from my chest and stomped it into the ground,
Afraid to leave what i have,
Afraid to run to you,
For fear of it again,

The fear overcomes me,
It controls me,
It leaves me at a standstill,

Taken by confusion,
I settle unfailingly,
Consumed by the unmerciful hand of my own being.

My Mask

My smile is my mask,
It hides what truely is,

Concealed by my vile veil,
My torment twists inside,
Plauging my mind,

My smile is my mask,
It hides what truely is,

It buries my sorrow,
My misery goes unseen,
My tender heart mourns my sadness alone,
My dismal achemy remains unbroken,

My smile is my mask,
It hides what truely is.

My Comfort

Your gentle touch,
Your comforting embrace,
The calming sensation of your voice,
The bliss of your very being,

To know your there is my comfort,
Your mere existance is what drives me on.

My Own Prison

I loath in the self pity of my existance,
My foolish pride leads me into anguish,
I dwell on my own compassion,
I weep in the comfort of my residual being,

Never shall it be good enough to satify my own selfish resentment,
Never shall i think my mislead egotism could prevail,

I thrive off my own pity and resentment,
Not to see what others do,

Never to approach the captivating thought of mirthful radient delight,
Of being satisfied with what i am,
And alway will be.

You Broke Me You Beat Me

You ripped my heart from my chest,
And left me there to bleed,
I loved you once,
And would have gave my life to be with you,

But...
You broke me,
You beat me,
You left me exposed and vulnerable,

It was torture to see you,
To hear the sweat voice that was once my comfort,
And what is now my prison,
My pain, my insanity,

You broke me,
You beat me,

Slowly my wounds mended,
Leaving behind scars,
They still tingle with pain when i see you,
I resent you,

You want me back now,
Once i would have given anything for you,
But you cannot comprehend my pain, my torment,

Never will i forget,
You broke me,
You beat me.

Trust

You say you trust me,
You just don't trust them,
But how can you be so foolish,

Some part of you wonders,
Some part of you doubts me,
Why can't you be honest with yourself,

Your ignorant jealously tears us apart,
You trust the words of others over mine,
How can you say you trust me,

If you trust me then trust that i will be faithful,
Trust that i would stop it before it happened,
Don't let your ignorant jealousy win,

You say you love me,
Well i love you too,
But trust is part of love.